Last week my friend, Catherine Witherell, tagged me and challenged me to think about "What are you about right now?" It has taken me awhile to contemplate just what I am about right this minute. I decided to convey my feelings mostly with single words integrated into a "Word Cloud" below. You, too, can create one of these fun collages by going to Wordle.net. Such fun. Thank you, Catherine, for turning me on to Wordle!
When writing my list, it was quite apparent that I am a person of contradictions in many ways. Contradictions can be a good thing I've decided as balance can be found in the middle.
Living in the moment - looking toward the future
Loving - being loved
Breathe - Exhale
Spring - Fall
Matte - Shine
Reaching out - Letting Go
Patience - impatience
Order - creative chaos
Self-acceptance - self-doubts
Over-achiever - lazy
Faith - fear
Be more physically fit - dislike for exercise
Music (Electronica - meditative)
How to reflect without having regrets
When looking at my life this moment, I must say I am very content....so very blessed. After working as an administrative assistant at a local university for 30 years, owning my own floral event design business also during that time (where did I find the energy for two jobs????) ,I am semi-retired. Every day I have the pleasure of doing whatever it is I wish to do or wish "not" to do. I work at not feeling guilty when I don't accomplish much in a day and embracing the fact that it's okay to hang up my Wonder Woman cloak that I have worn for so many years. The edges of the cloak are getting tattered and the importance of accomplishing so much is fading. I am learning to "down shift" and just "be" and look at each day with my eyes wide open, looking for those little miracles that happen every day. That's not to say that I don't have days that I feel down, depressed, in pain, have concerns, anxiety, etc.....because I do. I am trying to grow older gracefully and with "attitude". ...you never know what color hair I will have from one month to the next.
What are you about today? and is it where you want to be? If not, how can you get to the place you would like to be?
Tootles
Diana
17 comments:
Hello Diana,
Thank you for sharing the wordle link!! I have been having a great time there!! :)
Oh and I'm in the exact place both physicaly and emotionally I want to be right now. I worked my whole life to get here!!! Even when there were times I felt I'd never accomplish it, I still hoped. :) And now that I'm living out my dream I too am reveling in the becoming of the present Me!!
Pattie ;)
Mazatlan Mx.
This Wordle looks very cool. I will have to check it out.
I too find many contradictions in my life and my thinking. But it's the way I have always been. I have less desire and more acceptance. As I grow older I find myself wanting to seek out new things and learn more. I believe that your life is what you make of it and how you deal with the unexpected. Life can be challenging but also rewarding. At this time Life is peaceful and good, especially here on my farm.
When do I get to stop the bus and get off? ha ha , I can't wait to retire!!!
I think right now all my words would be ones like unfinished work harder get it done and faster!!!!!!
Thanks for sharing that!!!!
Somedays I just don't know which direction I want to be!!!
Cheers,
Margaret B
I am enjoying the self portraits! It looks like you have worked yourself in to a life of bliss,well deserved bliss
Oh sista you are talking to my soul. And right now my soul is TIRED! I need rest, happy, creative, fun. Been tooooooooo long & my body is telling me about it. I'm counting the days until I see your sweet face & hear your magical laughter. Funny how we are so similar in some ways. That contradiction thing is so ME! I thought it was because I am a TRUE Gemini that I had these issues.
Wow did this ever hit home today ! I supposed I am looking to come out of a retirement of sorts.....11 1/2 yeears home with 4 little boys. My youngest goes full day in the fall and I feel like I have tried to get on the creativity train for the last 5 years. It kept leaving the station without me ! LOL - I was such a creative person before kids I feel quite like I lost some of myself along the way. ( making diapers out of duct tape and paper towels doesn't quite cut it ). I didn't expect to be 45 and trying to figure out what I am going to be when I grow up. My coat is definately tattered and stitched .......I might have left it in the rain a few times and....hmmm......oh yes , someone split juice on it ! At this time in my life....I am waiting for the rest of my life to begin . Have a great day , Patty
Ohh, I must try this word cloud thingy, because it looks like so much fun.
Take care my friend. You are the best!
Your blogg.....me like!!!
Agneta from Sweden
The comments were almost as much fun to read as your post Diana. Thanks for playing along. Isn't it interesting and doesn't it make you feel somehow calmer inside just to voice or write down what it is you think you are dealing with NOW? It was for me. I have been taking it slower lately as well, but planning a lot anyway. We'll see what we actually end up doing and we will know when it happens.
Your eyes are definitely open! Mine too.
Catherine
I can so relate to this Diana. Thank you for writing this so eloquently.
Hi Diana,
Wordle looks like fun! I am going to check it out. Great post! Hugs, Stephani
Hi Diana, great post. Good to examine where we are in life, isn't it? You are a long way from "growing old" girl! Aren't we lucky we get to do what we want at this point in our lives? Happy creating!
I am hoping you will consider entering my fairy tale rewrite contest, at diamondsandtoads.com. You may well be too busy with teaching and creating, but I am hoping some artists will enter as writers.
At any rate, I love your work and blog.
Quite some time ago, I spent an evening going way back through your blog, which is something I rarely do or have time for. I've done it maybe three times, ever. I remember being struck more by the personal glimpses than your work (which, let me stress, I'm very fond of). I'm looking forward to attaining your sense of acceptance and peace - not there yet, but reading your posts is strangely reassuring to me, *s*. You're a little spot of zen in my world on occasion - just thought I'd tell you that, lol.
Thanks for sharing your thoughts. They are nicely said I wish I could express myself that good.
Cheers,
Efrat
Hello my friend! I hope you're feeling well. I miss your posts!
I miss your blog posts.
Hope all is well.
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